A letter to my future husband

Dear Future husband I know you are out there. Someday I will see you when you will be here sitting right next to me. I will tell you how my day was, how it made me feel lonely, and how strongly I acted. I will tell you, how one day, I fought with myself just to trail along the world. Accept the bitter reality of people around me. Yet loving them compassionately, I learned how life can be. I will tell you ,how your gender toy with my emotion,how they shattered my heart,how they left me depressed .I just have to accept the bitter true that am not worthy of love for now and accept the fact that maybe am worthy only for your life till we meet I will continue to ask Allah to safe gruad you ,protect you and provide u with not both halal and also protect u from any form of zina as it destroy many of our youth nowadays. with love your future soul mate